So I’ve been trying to take more days off and not be so work-centric lately. Since we sold the company, I theoretically should not have to sweat the small stuff as much as I used to, but it hasn’t been easy to untrain so many years of working myself stoopid. It’s a weird feeling of guilt taking days off even though I have so many vacation days under the new company now. I think I can’t let go of that workaholic mindset because I know that it’s my productivity and contributions at work that help me to internally justify my frequent indulgences. They’re all relatively benign indulgences mind you; not like I’m slamming dope or anything like that. But regardless, if I didn’t work so hard I would probably feel more than a tad guilty about enjoying myself all the time. And if I felt guilty I wouldn’t be able to bask in my pleasures as deeply as I do. Maybe that’s a little bit of the reason why celebrities sometimes end up killing themselves; they just can’t enjoy things as deeply as those who have that sense of having earned their pleasures. So if you’re rich and famous and everybody convinces you that where you’re at is as good as it gets, yet you don’t experience vivid pleasures in your life, then that’s gotta be pretty depressing. If this is as good as it gets, then what’s the point in going on? On the other hand, maybe I’m giving celebs too much credit, maybe their suicides are just caused by self-inflicted chemical influences.
In any event, I took a half day Friday to go to Atlantic City for the Click2Asia poker tourneys, a day off to play golf on Monday, then two more days coming up for Sterl’s wedding in CA, and then a week and a half for the WSOP. July 4th happens to be a holiday during that stretch too! Nice.
I busted out during the 2nd hour of both Click2Asia tourneys. Day 1 I just didn’t catch any cards and was blinded out. Day 2 I got knocked out by 2002 WSOP champ Robert Varkonyi. I opened from early position for 1/5 of my chips with pocket 10’s and he came over the top putting me all in. We were nearly equal in chips at the time. Normally I would have folded, but the tourney organizers were offering a bounty on him, a decent looking clay poker chip set, so I decided to go for the bounty with that hand. I knew he probably had AA or KK and I would be drawing as a deep underdog, but the alternative would have been to try and catch a hand before the blinds started shooting up astronomically as is the structure at these events. In any event, he had rockets and they held up. At least I can say I lost to the best.
In other news, the Sakura DVD’s I got are awesome, but now all I want to do is sit there and watch them all day and all night. Part of the reason why it’s so addictive is that they’re only 15 minute episodes. So just like potato chips, just when you’re trying to stop eating them, you tell yourself, oh, one more won’t hurt me. So the last few days it’s been taking all my willpower to call it a night at 2:30am. Yes, I seriously have issues. I should be working on my best man speech, but you know how it goes, if there’s something that I want to indulge in, you know what I’m going to do!